I don't have kids
I don't have a family here
I'm not 'really married'
It's my fault for moving so far away
It's my fault for being so 'sensitive' to my family's constant political vomitting at the dinner table
So now they've managed to plant a seed of guilt in my stomach. I spend the entire night last night throwing up from the stress. It also proves without a doubt that my relationship is not considered 'real' by my family. It makes me sick, even moreso when it's obvious they don't even realize the harm of this and still don't get it if I explain WHY it hurts.
Why do I let them do this to me?