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Apr. 19th, 2006 @ 10:22 am weirdspace^2
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Worst case of weirdspace today I think I've ever experienced, and it's the bad sort. Out of my control. I'm piloting my own body through a thick fog. I have to march myself when I walk, leftrightleftrightleftright chanting in my head, or I'll start to stumble and trip over the slightest alteration of terrain. It was only 50 outside, but I had no real concern for the temperature. It was cold, I could feel the cold, but it was numb to me. For all it felt to me, was like an icon in a game saying 'you feel cold'. It had no effect on my actual state of being.

When I tried to wake up this morning, tried is the key point. I was in the middle of a terrible nightmare of undergrad. I was having seizures constantly on campus, flailing around wildly, but I was also having sleep paralysis at the same time. I knew I was dreaming, but I couldn't wake myself up. Instead however of realizing that I can't move, all I had was the REM going on of myself flailing around and falling to the ground, unable to speak or control my body.

The scary part is when I finally did rose myself fully, my sheets were all over the place. I was flailing in reality too, you aren't supposed to be able to move in REM.

What the fuck is wrong with me.
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From:frameacloud
Date:April 19th, 2006 04:52 pm (UTC)
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When sleep paralysis goes away during REM, it's a sign of stress. That's what sleep-walking is. It probably means that you're needing to take some time out to rest and sort things out.
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From:pathia
Date:April 19th, 2006 05:00 pm (UTC)
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Can't. Finals are soon, projects do.

Can't sleep, school will eat me.
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From:azraile
Date:April 19th, 2006 06:03 pm (UTC)
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*hugs the stressed dragon and nods* Yah and some people can move a little during REM all the time too.
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From:delphshadow
Date:April 20th, 2006 05:21 am (UTC)
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I wouldn't worry about it, hun. You just were distressed in the midst of a dream or somesuch and starting flailing around some... no biggie. Happens to me from time to time and it's WIERD when I wake up.
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From:iridium_wolf
Date:April 20th, 2006 10:51 am (UTC)
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If you need some floof therapy, let me know.
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From:foxgrrl
Date:April 21st, 2006 04:10 am (UTC)
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I feel like that alot too, I think that it might be this:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociation
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From:pathia
Date:April 21st, 2006 04:19 am (UTC)
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Oh! That's what it is, my shrink diagnosed me right away when I described these episodes to them I think.

I like the term weirdspace more tho! :D ;)