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Mar. 22nd, 2006 @ 01:16 pm Something my mom wrote...
She wrote the following on a transfamily list, to someone who was missing the 'old' self.



Yes I know what that hurt feels like. I'm cleaning out one of the bedrooms to make a "real" guest room. It's taking forever...all the trophies, all the notebooks & clothes. I think what we mourn is our own vision of that child's future, but it never was ours to begin with. We only give them life, they make their life.

Ricky was a little boy who stopped growing up sometime in puberty, he will be frozen forever as a little boy. A young woman has taken his place, I love her very much but can't help but miss my little Ricky. I look at the little boy pictures & want to reach into them, hold him & never let go.

But I haven't lost him, he's still here & I'm learning how to live with the new reality. In fact she'll be here this week end for her birthday on Friday.
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From:jonesybunny
Date:March 22nd, 2006 06:22 pm (UTC)
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-hugs- I think it's only natural for your mother to miss your 'old self'. Changes like the ones you went through aren't easy for you or others.

I cannot possibly say that I know what you're going trough as I can only go by on theory and common sense, but I support you.

I'd say just let your mother know that you're there for her, be it directly or indirectly.
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From:tracerj
Date:March 22nd, 2006 07:02 pm (UTC)
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This could easily have been said by my mother, also, and you've heard me go on about how supportive she is. It does sound like your mom has really caught on that she's not losing anything, but gaining a lot. That's the nice thing about parents; seeing you at your happiest will wash away their doubts.
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From:koogrr
Date:March 22nd, 2006 09:31 pm (UTC)
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Ack. Death of Self.
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From:prickvixen
Date:March 22nd, 2006 09:50 pm (UTC)
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That is sweet.
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From:shatterstripes
Date:March 22nd, 2006 10:28 pm (UTC)
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And eventually, she'll see the girl peeking out from behind the boy drag in those old photos.
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From:tommicat
Date:March 23rd, 2006 02:50 am (UTC)
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*whips a tear*
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From:animakitty
Date:March 23rd, 2006 08:01 pm (UTC)

Well,

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Not what I expected, but isn't it wonderful to see that she feels that way beyond a doubt, said in a place (I assume) she didn't think you'd see it? You've got an incredible mother; I'm so glad you have support from that corner.
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From:natashasoftpaw
Date:March 24th, 2006 06:26 am (UTC)
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Wow, that is really cool. Very well worded :-)
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From:azraile
Date:April 7th, 2006 02:44 am (UTC)
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*hugs* least she understands, most parents in that kinda sitation don't seam to....
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From:delphshadow
Date:April 14th, 2006 12:54 am (UTC)
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Indeed... the pain of memory. Missing what is presently there, removed and reconfigured due to a new conception of self. A great pity as well...
From:kk_kitsune
Date:April 14th, 2006 01:44 am (UTC)
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That was ineffably sweet... *Sniffle*